The last two weeks have been great! And if you have any idea just how fucking long it’s been since I’ve been able to say those words, or anything akin to them, you’ll know how big a deal it is. My mind is still reeling from the actuality of how I feel right now, and it’s a really great place to be. My mind. Because everything in it feels better. Like it’s finally healing, and lighter, and more positive.
After a a hiatus from the social world for longer than I care to admit, I’ve gone out twice in the last fortnight, and stayed in once or twice socially also. As if just the act of doing that wasn’t positively reinforcing enough, every encounter was awesome, and fun, and unexpected, and eye-opening. They were all definitely a “Fuck Yes”.
I discovered new places, new people, new conversations, new looks, new things to do, and well…a few other things š There was a frantic bus trip (which felt more like a rally race) at 4am, a secret hidden rooftop bar, many drinks, lots of walking, lots more dancing, good food, late night conversations, bad food, sharing secrets, and plenty of good company. It was all…wow. Just wow.
Getting back out there into the world after being closed off for so long, can be a daunting prospect. But these past few weeks have been plain sailing. Some really unexpected (I may use that word a lot-lol) fantastic, bold moments, and the follow-ups to those moments even better. Traversing those moments without the build-up of baggage I was previously holding, felt a lot more fluid, and positive motivation from friends was the cherry on top. It sure felt good to share good news so many times for a change.
So, after a year of existing in a new City, now with a new vibe, I’m finally ready to try living in it. Explore it. To look on it in a different way, and find out if it fits better than it has before. To break it open and let myself trickle through the cracks, the alleyways, the rooftops, the dimly lit streets, the bright breezy parks, the small corner cafes, the bustling live music joints, and the ocean fronts. So, when I travel again, I have a place that feels a little more like ‘coming home’. Although I already suspect that I already have more than enough reason, for that to seem more enticing now.
If things look dull, never forget that life can change in a decision, or even just a moment, or two, or three.
Cheers,
V