If you hadn’t already guessed it, this is about change. Not any sudden, earth shattering, blindingly obvious, 2am revelation type change, but the type that happens every day. It’s really about the type of change that just creeps up on you. The type that you don’t notice at all…until you do.
People go about their business every day, blind to just how much change is happening around them. More importantly, blind to how much change is happening within them. Over time, small things change, which you really don’t notice too much, like taste in music, food etc. Then there are more obvious alterations such as wardrobe, hobbies, employment. On another level the bigger stuff creeps in…taste (in anything), and the kicker…interests, attractions and emotions.
When the moment comes that you finally realise you have changed that much that you may not really be the same person you once were, what do you do? Think, Talk it through, discuss, analyse, re-evaluate what you have, what you want, what you need to be happy. Then there’s the next step. The harder one, that comes after the talking…
Maybe that change means letting go of some of the things that have remained a constant in your life thus far, or just adding new things into it. Perhaps breaking out of routine? Maybe letting go a little, to hold on. Maybe just letting go. Every situation is different, everyone is different, so only you can figure out what it is you need to change, to be in the place that you want to be.
They say only two things in life are inevitable-Death and Taxes. I think you can add Love to the equation. I believe that every person, whether by their own design or not, will fall in love. It is an inevitable, life changing experience. It’s not always easy, but it is worth it. It will let you experience the utmost extremes of any emotion you ever felt. And the thing is, you should love your life just as much. And if you love life, you should love living it. You should make whatever change is necessary to be totally happy.
Yes, like everything else, there’s risk. No-one said it would be easy. What if you make the wrong decisions? What if you somehow manage to phenomenally fuck things right up??? What if things don’t get any better? What if you only realise once it’s too late? What if??….
But what in life isn’t a risk?
Do your best to ‘get to know’ what it is you want a whole lot better. At the same time, get to know yourself again.
Only you can make the changes/solutions in your life that really count. Only you know the answers (even if it may not feel like it sometimes). So if your life needs fire, find the/a spark (wherever you left it). If you have something that makes you feel amazing, gives you butterflies, and the very thought of losing it causes an ache inside you. Hold onto it, because you know what?….